Jason

We're early into this process and its just feels like our whole world stopped.  We know what is coming, but its just torture to wait for it to happen.  We've been told that the process could take 3-9+ months until I finally serve my sentence.  Part of me wants to get started right away, so I can get back to my family sooner.  Part of me is glad to have time to help my family prepare as much as possible.

The waiting is the hardest part, as the saying goes.  I'm really trying to fight off depression.  Being that I am currently unemployed, I have too much time on my hands.  Lately I have been sleeping till noon, which I know isnt healthy.  I just cant seem to get myself out of bed some days.  Life feels pointless right now to me.  We both went from planning our future and thinking years ahead, to literally going hour by hour....just trying to get thru each day.

I've talked this thru with Desiree, and we think that in many ways this must be what someone who is terminally ill goes thru.  Probably severe depression, anxiety...then moving towards acceptance and being able to function at some point.  I am doing the best I can to force myself to be productive, but it is very hard.  I am definitely praying a LOT, reading scriptures, and listening to the prophets and apostles, which really does help a TON.  Also, one thing I found helpful was to listen to a series called 'enduring it well' on the mormon channel (http://www.mormonchannel.org/enduring-it-well)

Have you had much help from your ecclesiastical leaders (bishop or stake president) in dealing with this life crisis?

So, I want to open this up for discussion.  What has helped you deal with the incarceration of your husband? 

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